Dark night of the soul

Another great quote from "The Dark Night of The Soul" by Gerald G. May. In it he writes: "the dark night of the soul is an ongoing transition from compulsively trying to control one's life toward a trusting freedom and openness to God and the real situations of life."

I was struck by the power of this thought. I have been coming to grips with my own efforts of "compulsively trying to control" my life and my circumstances. While I hardly know if I'm in the middle of a dark night of my soul, I do know that I want to work on making the transition he is speaking about in my own life.

Budens to bear

About three weeks ago I wrote about a transformation in my life. Emmanuel had brought a wonderful new gift into our lives, a gift which I had fought and was not to happy about. But it was a gift that transformed my life in a very short time. The gift was a beautiful girl, Emma. Emmanuel was her foster father and it was hoped that due to her background Emmanuel would be able to adopt her. We have now found out that it is very likely she will be placed in another home sometime this summer. So barring a miracle, it is likely we will lose those wonderful presence in our lives. Please pray for us and Emma. We trust in God and know that God is watching over Emma. But the thought of losing her breaks our hearts.