My thoughts and musings which are occasionally orthodox but much more likely to be considered heretical.
Sunday, July 13, 2008
Wonderful Fran over at Fran I Am posted a wonderful comment which reminded me of something I have been trying to stress in my life. That is thankfulness. In my parish and prison ministry it was one of my central points I was preaching about. I have noticed, just in the less than a month I have been away from prison ministry and in the less than 4 months I have been away from parish ministry, that already I'm less attentive to it in my own life.
And this is not because I have less to be thankful for. In fact I have so much to be thankful for.
But I have discovered that it is so very easy to forget to be thankful to God for all the blessings and gifts she gives me.
It is too easy to focus on the negative in life.
As little Emma rolls around on the floor in front of me, my heart is filled with thankfulness for the continued gift of her presence in my life. That thankfulness is tinged with a bit of fear as I know that all too soon she will be leaving and I will have to deal with the pain of separation.
However, pain it not without its positive points as well. And the pain I will feel at Emma's departure will be mixed with the knowledge that her presence in my life has changed me forever. And although she may not remember me in her life, I know that I have contributed in some small way to all she will become.
I will always carry her in my heart and in my prayers.